Monday, February 1, 2010
Quote discipline Day 12
That being said, if we take love out of it, then my heart flutters at the quote's point: value is known intuitively, not by logic.
Ah, now that's a lesson that comes with following and flexing. Things don't have make sense logically. Sometimes they just are.
My time in Timor was a disaster yet fabulous. I did well at work, yet am still finding out about mistakes I made. Socially wacked out and no friendships lasted, but people were the highlight of the time. None of it makes any sense whatsoever to me, but I know it is, and I know it's right.
Christmas in Malaysia, New Years in the air, then Sydney. Five stays in Bali in the month of December. All this when I was expecting to run away and stay with the Sisters out of fear of depression during a lonely holiday season. It was a gift, sure, but wasn't that Christmas with the Sisters or Christmas home alone going to be a spiritual growth experience? I totally don't get God's logic in working things out that way, but I definitely appreciate it.
And here I am living in this lovely little village hours from the nearest city which isn't a particularly impressive city as far as cosmopolitanism goes. So I'm looking forward to a rest-and-relaxation week at the end of February. But just watch, I'm going to be somewhere else before or after that, and it will be so lovely that I won't need rest-and-relaxation anymore. Not that I'll be resting or relaxing then... oh, don't you see? Intuitively this is all just perfectly right. Logically, thought, it's lost on me.
If you're reading this in an interactive mindset, I'd ask you to stop a minute to think about things in your life that intuitively are something special - valuable - but logically you're a bit lost to explain. Are they there? I hope so, because they make life gorgeous and faith real.