Monday, May 10, 2010

i'm glad today is almost over

I apologise in advance: this post is probably going to be very introspective. In fact, it's probably so introspective I shouldn't post it.

Today was not an easy day for me. It had all the fixings of an easy day and in fact should have been a perfect day, but it was not.

I choose to attribute it to two reasons: First, the hotel where I'm staying only has electricity before 7:30 in the morning and after 6 p.m., which means no Internet all day. Come to think of it, I can't remember the last time I've gone all day without electricity - no TV, no lights, no computer, no music.

Oh, but there was music, and that's the second reason. Since noon, there's been a dance party going on right outside. Techno mixes so loud that the doors in my room rattled and I had to shout my lunch order three times before someone could understand what I wanted.

I suppose that increased my irritation with certain other little things, like the hundreds of mosquitoes that buzzed in around my head starting about an hour ago, or the fact they forgot to bring the ice that I requested to go with my coke, or the fact the internet was so flaky even after it started back up.

On top of all this, I'm quite alone in a little town on the coast. It's lovely, but I'm getting tired of going to new places alone. I've learned to enjoy being on my own, but I think I may have crossed some threshold and it's just not working for me anymore.

This has me thinking that it's time for a change in lifestyle, but if you've known me a while, you know that I've thought this before and I've tried this before. I always seem to end up somewhere like where I am now, doing something like what I'm doing now. It's who I was made to be. But I still can't help but wonder if it's not time to start struggling against nature - if only I could come up with something else to do.

OK, enough of the instrospection. Seriously - a dance party all day long so loud the furniture and doors all tremble?! All day long? So loud I couldn't think? And no electricity or Internet all day either? I guess they just assume that people stay in the hotel at night only.

On the upside, I went for another walk this morning. Almost two hours long - I ran out of places to walk, since this isn't a particularly large town. I chatted with some children as we watched a funeral procession pass, bonded with an old woman who was walking alongside me as some guys shouted out marriage proposals in feeble Spanish to me, and stopped on the street to listen to some acapella singing in a church service. I would have liked to go in to a church, but everyone was so so so so dressed up!

And that there was an interesting observation. The icky feeling I had on a Saturday evening was quite different from the joyful feeling of a Sunday morning.

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